Physical Check-In: Week 5

Yep - Week 4 came and went with no check in.  Moving states and spending a week with my family for a family reunion took a lot out of me.  I was pleasantly surprised when I stepped on the scale this morning though.  I have to figure this whole physical body, exercise, weight, eating thing out.  I want it to be easy and natural, kind of how sexual sobriety is for me right now.  But I know it wasn't always that way.  I need to allow it to be difficult at first -- I need to fight for it -- I need to want it more than I want anything else in my life.  That is how I feel today.  I want it more than I want anything else right now. 

I'm changing the format here and the goals. 

Weight:  I'm down 5.1 lbs. from where I started on June 1.
Exercise:  I moved, went camping with my family, and walked lots. I threw the football around with my nephew and didn't let anything stop me from doing what I wanted to do physically.  It felt good.
Thoughts:  Overall, I did well the last few weeks.  I'm falling into comparison mode and not feeling good enough or pretty enough or thin enough or just enough at anything.  I didn't realize how much this was spurred on by my family.  I was able to let go of it most of the time.  It's going to continue to be a little bit of a battle, but I will conquer.
Food:  I did really well with food over my move and the first week here.  I can't remember a time I overate at all.  I made cookies last night, but didn't cook all of them, and took some to a neighbor.  It was good.  I've focused on eating more vegetables and that has really helped.  So has focusing on water. 

Victories last week:
Navigated the family reunion without acting out with food.
Made good food choices while eating out for nearly two weeks straight.
Walked at the lake and was active with my nephews and family.

Challenges last week:
Drinking enough water.  I struggled a little with heat exhaustion, need to keep hydrated.
Feeling embarrassed and ashamed of my appearance. 

Focus moving forward:
PLANNING! -- I literally haven't planned a week of meals for a month or so.  That stops today!
WATER -- I've got to stay hydrated, especially because it's hot here and I sweat a lot.
ACTIVITY -- I scoped out a walking path and clocked it at 3 miles.  I will walk 5 times this week.

Another great week is on it's way!