Joy: I felt happy today. I don't right this minute, but I had a good two - three hours where I was just happy. It was a combination of a lot of things. But I felt happy, genuinely, wonderfully, refreshingly happy.
Fear: I came home today and was somewhat afraid to come home to my sister. I hate it.
Pain: Sunburn, still going strong. Oh and cramps.... oh how I hate thee.
Loneliness: I was sad today as I sat and talked to my friend about the situation with my sister and it made me a little lonely. Why can't I fix it? Why can't we have an amazing healthy relationship? Why isn't it all that I want it to be? Why can't we be friends?
Anger: I was angry at myself today for lying to a friend and then not answering her phone calls. I didn't say anything horrible, just lied when I didn't even need to. I didn't want to set a boundary and so lied to get out of it. Why do I do that?
Shame: I flew home tonight and I had to get a seat belt extender for my seat. It's only short about an inch, but I hate it. I am ashamed of my body sometimes. It's getting better, but tonight the shame was there for sure.
Guilt: I need to work at my relationship with my sister more.
Passion: I am excited to be back home and ready to start my new adventure. I need to find a job and jump into school and get a life. I felt excited about that today.
Love: I love my grandma. I love my family. Even for all the craziness and addiction and horrible things that have happened. I love them. I spent time with grandma today and told her how much I miss her and all she has meant to me throughout my life. Grandpa, too. I love them.
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