Feelings 3.2

I didn't write a feelings post yesterday. I had a feeling early in the day that said - you should do this early because it's going to be a late night. I didn't listen.  Oh well.  lol

Fear: There was a new woman at my SA meeting this morning. I'm always a little scared about sharing that part of my life with someone new. I told my quick abbreviated story. The meeting went really well and my fear dissipated quickly. 

Anger: My sister tried a little co-dependence with me today. "Where are you going? What are you doing? What are your plans? I can't do anything if I don't know your plans." It makes me mad. Frustrated more than angry probably.  But that old resentment starts to set in if I don't get rid of it quickly. 

Pain: My eyes hurt. I need to be wearing my glasses when I'm tired like this but I forget until my eyes start to hurt.

Shame: I was reading some addiction blogs today. These are blogs I've read before where people share their stories and experiences. I started reading this one that was a bit graphic and felt a little "lust hit" from it. I should have stopped reading, but didn't. I finished the entire blog post and started reading another one before I finally stopped and closed the blog. I made a support call and feel better about it -- but I'll have to report that at group as a slip.

Guilt: I told Rebecca I'd call her today and I didn't.

Loneliness: No real loneliness today either. I was plugged in and connected most if not all of the day and didn't really feel lonely.

Joy: My bedroom is clean!!  :)  Top to bottom cleaning. Clean sheets - clean clothes - clean carpet and furniture! It's all organized and looks beautiful! I love it when things are like that!

Passion: Nope -- no real passion. 

Love: I feel loved today. I feel incredibly grateful for so many things that are going right in my life. I'm grateful for the messages shared during the Relief Society General Meeting tonight. They were full of faith, hope and love.