Fear: I bore my testimony in church today. I haven't done that for a very long time. I haven't felt worthy. When I did my full confession to my bishop last January, I was scared out of my mind. For the past few months I have wanted to bare my testimony but wasn't sure how to do it. I felt scared today for a few minutes as I walked up to the stand.
Anger: No real anger today -- really, none that I can remember.
Shame: No real shame today either -- it was a good day.
Guilt: I had a good day -- no real guilt either. :)
Loneliness: Sometimes I feel lonely at church as I watch all the other families sit together. I want a family. I know that will come one day, and I'm ok with that. I want to deal with my addiction and be in a little bit of a better place prior to marriage. So I'm ok with it -- it's just a little bit lonely at times.
Pain: My hip really hurts today -- I've got to do something about it, but I don't want to. The stretches really help, they really help, but it's still really tight. I'm trying.
Joy: I really felt the spirit today at church. I felt joy as I bore my testimony and talked about my testimony of the atonement. I have a testimony of the atonement.
Love: Primary kids were awesome today as we practiced for the program. We worked on the 5-star performance aspect and they were awesome. I LOVE Primary. I LOVE singing with the kids. I LOVE kids.
Passion: I'm very excited to start my job search tomorrow. Full swing tomorrow. Life is going to be good this week. I feel very ready and motivated for this week.
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