Here we go..... Week 2 of the feelings challenge. This has been highly beneficial. As I write each night, it gives me an opportunity to process my feelings. I feel more in control of my feelings and I feel like each day I start over, that emotions don't carry over from day to day. I've never had that before. Things always seemed to build up and carry over from hour to hour, day to day, week to week. Going to bed with feelings processed is good. It doesn't always work, but it's working more and more.
Fear: I'm afraid of my financial situation. I need to actually balance my checkbook and start living by a budget again.
Anger: Didn't really feel angry today --- glad for that.
Shame: Can't really think of anything I felt shameful about today either.
Guilt: I didn't work hardly at all today. I need to work and clean and do more about the house. I feel guilty about sleeping late, watching multiple episodes of Dr. Who, and my lack of progress on the User's Manual.
Loneliness: The doctor left Rose Tyler behind in an alternative universe. I know it's stupid, but I cried. It made me lonely. She cried, he cried, her life will never be the same, nor will his. Why does it have to work that way? Why
Pain: Sunburn -- hit my elbow.
Joy: Sleeping in my own bed felt joyful last night. I really enjoyed it.
Passion: I went swimming today. I haven't been lap swimming for months. I really do enjoy swimming. I'm excited to start swimming again.
Love: I tried to be more present my sister tonight. It went fairly well. I'm not sure how this new relationship is going to work, but somehow I need to build boundaries and learn how to work this better.
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