Anger: No real anger today -- that's a few days in a row.
Fear: No real fear --
Pain: My arms hurt today. After swimming on Friday, the back of arms hurt. It's a hurt kind of pain, but pain nonetheless.
Loneliness: I sat in church alone today. Primary got to me today. The cutest kid gave a talk today and his mom and dad were in the back watching. I watched them beaming with pride as he spoke and it make me lonely. I want a family.
Shame: No real shame today
Guilt: I should have done more last week for work -- I should have communicated with work better and should have done a better job. I need to catch up.
Joy: No real joy today.
Passion: I sang with the stake choir tonight. LOVE singing again. LOVE being part of a choir.
Love: Little Flora in Nursery called after me every time she saw me today -- I love you Sistah Smith. I love working in Nursery and Primary. I feel loved everytime I'm in nursery. They all love me and talk to me and want to be with me. I love them!
So I felt all these feelings today but I don't want to talk about them. Is that good or bad? Bad probably. I know, it's bad actually. When I don't want to talk about feelings, or process feelings or discuss feelings, then that means I want to escape them.
I need to work through my feelings. but I don't want to!!!!!
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