I had a really good session with my nutritional therapist today. It really helped me to re-focus my recovery. I needed a kick in the butt and she provided that. I needed support and she provided it. I needed a few quick reminders of what I am doing and my journey. She was so helpful.
Recovery is about me. It is one of the first things I have done for myself in my entire life. I've lived a life haunted by the needs and concerns of others. I've been co-dependent and acted out in my addictions to the point of losing myself. Recovery is the first thing I have done for myself. I will protect and direct my own recovery.
I am enough. There is no secret thing I must accomplish or level of perfection I must attain prior to working on recovery. The person I am, right now, is enough. I am worthy of recovery.
I will do what it takes. Recovery is an opportunity to re-do my life. I will do what it takes to be the person I want to be. I will do what it takes to have the life I want to have. I am not trapped by my previous experiences nor am I doomed to repeat them. I will choose to act and not be acted upon.
I practice recovery in principle and not in emotion. When I choose to act out of principle, recovery makes progress. When I practice in emotion, things don't get done. I'm hit and miss in my recovery behaviors.
That's a start. I will continue to add to my recovery reminders as I go along. I am grateful for recovery. Extremely grateful today.
I like the thought about recovery being about you! I guess it at least gives me one thing to say I accomplished in life when I'm feeling like I haven't done anything for myself, or completed any of my goals in life. I will complete my recovery :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for the chat tonight. Love you.
You're amazing. What you have gone through and what you are working on is worth celebrating. We all have things we wish we could have done or things we think we "should" have done. I feel much the same way about completing goals in my life. I say it's never too late. Go for what you want. :)
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