Energy

I just want to crawl into bed and sleep.  I'm exhausted.  I was up until 2pm with my friend last night trying to lend a listening ear and be supportive.  I was up at 7 to go to my SA meeting -- great meeting.  I have a game night I'm in charge of tonight for the single adults in my area and have a lot of set up that needs to get done.  I'm hungry, tired, and feel pulled a million directions with not a lot of support.  I'm frustrated about it.  I have to dig deep and find the energy and strength to put on a happy face and make this the best night EVER for these people!!!  I can do it!!!!! 

I really just want people to leave me alone.  The good and bad of being connected is also being asked to do a lot of things and always having to be "on".  I'm frustrated with that.  I say no to so many things, yet people keep asking and people give me guilt trips about saying NO more often.  HELLO!  You have no idea how many things I do say no to. 

This is just complaining.  I'm tired of single adults who do nothing but drain the energy from me and who are self-absorbed.  They expect everyone to put everything on for them and don't contribute.  But I won't waste my time going to stupid events -- SO -- I will go tonight and set up and have an awesome time and put on a smile and a happy face and sing my lungs out on Karaoke! 

AND then, I will come home and sleep.