5.6

I don't want to do this tonight.  Why don't I want to do this tonight?  Probably because I really don't like what I did or didn't do today. And because I don't feel well. I really need to cut myself some slack because I don't feel well.  And because I've done a lot of emotional work lately and that exhausts me.

Anger: Just at myself, I slept late, napped, watched TV most of the day and didn't get much done. I haven't worked out in two days, but I'm just so tired.

Shame:  Again -- I didn't do anything today.

Guilt:  Same as above.

Fear:  I'm starting to get nervous about my lack of desire to really find a job.  I need a fire lit under me.

Loneliness:  Today was way better than last night.  I'm feeling better than yesterday.

Joy: Nope.

Love: Not really. 

Passion: Nope.

It wasn't a bad day -- just a slothful day.  Like I said earlier -- it really is a sick day. I need to cut myself some slack for that.

OK - tomorrow will be better.  Tomorrow I will get some work done around the house, and put in two applications.  I will pull myself out of this tomorrow.  Tonight - I'm taking some NyQuil and going to bed.  :)  Goodnight.