Monday, October 15, 2012

Feelings 5.4

Anger: What do you do for people who won't help themselves? I get angry. I don't usually reveal this anger to anyone, but it can consume me. Again, co dependence shining through.  I can only listen to the same person whine about the same thing for so long before I become angry. After anger comes apathy.  I'm anxious to move to apathy on this one.

Pain: I woke up without a voice.  I can literally not make a sound today but whisper. I wasn't sick yesterday, but today, I have a chest cold and am coughing up phlegm. Oh - and I have no voice. My chest is tight, I didn't sleep well and my body is achy.  I've been on meds all day and feel better tonight, but I need my voice back.

Fear: Yes - but I don't want to talk about it.

Shame:  Not really.

Guilt: I slept in AND took a nap today.  I probably needed it, but I always feel a little guilty and indulgent when I do things like that. I need to get past it and practice good self-care.

Loneliness: I'm presenting my story at group tomorrow. I read it through today for timing. I don't want it to be forever long.  It made me lonely.

Love: I had a good text exchange with my friend today that made me feel loved.

Joy: I'm going to eat pizza tonight -- it's in the oven right now!

Passion: I have a passion for sleep right now, does that count?

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