Anger: I had a co-dependent moment with my with sister last night that made me angry. And another one today that also made me angry. I handled them well in the moment, and need to let the anger go and not be co-dependent myself by letting the aftermath control how I feel.
Fear: My little sister called me today and asked to borrow money. I have money for her to borrow. That means I not have money lent out to my brother, my mom and now my sister. It's not hurting me to have the money lent out. But it makes me a little fearful. I need a job.
Shame: No shame today.
Guilt: No guilt today.
Pain: I have the "cold fog" going on, where my head is full of congestion and my eyes don't want to focus. I just feel cloudy.
Loneliness: No more than normal.
Love: Adam was misbehaving in primary today. I'm the only adult he'll listen to. He was sitting in my lap and I was showing him some pictures. We looked at the picture of earth and he said, "I came to earth with Power to choose". They are the words of a primary song I taught a number of months ago. We turn the picture and he finishes "Good choices help me and my family, too". I LOVE it when I have these moments with the kids where I know they have internalized the words. I also love Adam because when he sees me he says -- "It's my sistah smiff! Hi my sistah smiff!!" When other kids talk to me and he's in a bad mood he'll say "No, she's my sistah smiff!" Oh -- I love you, Adam.
Joy: No real joy today.
Passion: Nope.
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