Tuesday, October 23, 2012

6.5

Anger:  No -- I am loving not having so much anger in my life.  It is a new event for me and I'm really liking it.

Fear: I was a little fearful going back to group after sharing my story last week. Sometimes, I feel so different from the other women in group. And other times, I feel so similar to them.  In some ways, I'm extremely grateful I did not marry young and carry all these emotional issues into a relationship.  But in others, I'm so incredibly jealous that they have a partner to work through these issues with. I don't know, just a bit of uncertainty and fear.

Loneliness: Nothing major. A little bit while I was at group tonight. I realized I've kind of unplugged this week from group. I made no calls and only one or two texts. I need to plug back in a little bit.  But on the other hand.... I've really enjoyed my time this week with myself. I've done a lot of work on recovery and other things and have really enjoyed it. 

Pain: Went walking............

Shame: Not a lot of shame today, if any.  I think there was a moment or two because I feel uncomfortable saying no shame today.  Oh well.

Guilt:  Nope -- no guilt today.

Joy:  I'm on day 4 of being in a really good place. I'm joyful about it.

Love:  I shared some new insights I've had recently with my nutritional therapist in an email yesterday.  She wrote back today and I felt incredibly loved by her comments and thoughts.

Passion:  Nothing new -- this passion for self-care and clean spaces is continuing, which I am totally grateful for.  Been to the gym twice this week and loved it.

That's it.

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