Feelings 5.1

I have 5 minutes - and I am determined not to miss a day this week.

Anger: Nope

Fear: I cleaned up some nasty black tarish stuff from under the fridge today. I'm HOPING that is what the smell is in that corner of our kitchen that has been there since we moved in. It scared me. It was totally gross.

Shame: Nope

Guilt: I didn't get near as much done today as I wanted to. I hate when I over schedule and then feel guilty about it - STUPID!

Pain: I walked at the gym today JUST BECAUSE I WANTED TO. I'm not supposed to walk, it hurts when I walk, but I'm so tired of riding the bike and just wanted to walk. I'm paying for it tonight.

Loneliness: Not anymore so than usual.

Love: I went to an SA meeting this morning. I didn't go last week because I totally spaced it. I LOVE this meeting.  The men there are so accepting and so uplifting. It was good to connect with them again.

Joy: I did get a lot done today! Not that the week has been unproductive, but I have just had a lot of little things around the house that have been piling up.  I'm glad to have gotten a lot done and feel joyful going out with some friends tonight.

Passion:  I won the negotiation with my fat releasers today. Long story -- but I won. 6 weeks and the contract with be mine permanently.  this is part of that passion for self-care I'm developing.  Post to come soon about that -- I promise.

And I'm out the door.....