Feelings 5.2

Today is my 4 month sobriety anniversary. It was a good day overall, but there were some issues. I had a major co-dependency slip with my family this morning. My sister and I had a disagreement today. I have more and more reasons why I need to not live with her. My resolution to move out is getting stronger everyday.

I'm grateful for four months of sobriety. It's more than I've ever had in recovery. I've hit 3 months several times, but this is the first time at 4 months.  It feels different. I really like it.  I'm really grateful for it.

Ok.... today's feelings:

Anger: I hate it when families come to a ward activity with their children and don't pay attention to them or what they're doing.  Want to run around? I have no problem with that, just watch your kids.  Want to play with the other kids? No big deal.  Want to have long distance jumping competition from the top of the stage?  Yeah - not a good idea, especially when parents don't pay attention until the first one falls and splits his forehead open. I could have told you that was going to happen. I understand that I don't have kids, and so many people would think I was being judgemental.  But really, watch your kids. I don't care who you think you are, and who you think your kids are. Pay attention.

Fear: Not today. 

Pain: Glorious PMS cramping today.  So fun. 

Shame: None that I can remember.

Guilt: I ate too much today.

Loneliness: I can't stop thinking about Daryl. Let it go, Amy. 

Love: I love Erika. She has been my best friend for over 14 years. I love her. She is an amazing person.

Passion: I played the piano for over an hour today. I LOVE playing. I love making music.

Joy: I looked cute today.  I loved looking cute.